Born to die

This is not a summary of the human race. Not a stand by accusation to just blow away. I make a statement of rights i've never had. Never wanted to be who i am today, never knew what to take away. I am who i am and that's a fact. But still I wonder, since i was little i'd wonder.Why am i here? Why can't i be somewhere that means more, somewhere that have magic and mystery to the liking. You are a disgraced, un-excepted and ignored. You mean nothing in this world. This thing we call earth. You are meaningless to me. I don't care for you, or what you are. I do not care for what you want to become. I loath who i am, i cannot stand my own reflection. Beauty is a curse along with the straight back and proper words. Im sorry, excuse me, may i.I can't tell anymore, i don't know what to listen to. I don't know who to speak with. I'm over in life, i just want the ending to come and a beginning to start. Born to die, i am born to die because in death i'll be born again into my sanctuary of sleep, my internal slumber. Forever, i shall sleep. Born to die, i shall sleep. 

And he sang me that satanic lullaby; love.

Everyday, im beautiful, everyday we scream. Everyday you love me, everyday.. i’ll dream. One day you’ll be here, one day you’ll see. That it’s not only you capable of love this deep. I know i play coy, and dance around the idea, but i love you more then anything, dont give it a second thought. You are all that means something to me, you are all i really want… you are the only one, the most amazing one, i just can’t believe you chose me. We will hug, kiss, yell and fight but always know your the one who shines so bright. The only one who can have my heart. You can make me blush, and giggle. I don't know how you love me, but i don't care.

I love you so much, My sterling star.

Undecided Fate

Who can say they have loved and been loved when truly, the ones you love may be the best liars in the world and the ones you look past may have loved you for their entire life. Do you know what love is, when you’ve never felt love? Love is not who gets you the most flowers, love isn’t how much you can spend on eachother. Love isn’t the guy you’ve been with for three years that lies and covers it up with, “i love you.” Love it that boy who makes you smile everyday just because they can. Undeniable love is the simplicity of a phone call from a friend who knows you were out drinking. Love is the first person you think of when you feel like hanging out, and love is the one thing that’ll hurt you the most in the world. The illusion of love can turn out great or can go horribly wrong, true love will keep you alive while theres illusions all around. 

Dear World

Dear World,

I know you’re dealing with the crisis of humanity and stressing about lack of sweaters and sun tan lotion for the climate change. But i just really wanted to tell you something successful, I woke up today. It’s amazing, but I don’t know how much longer i can keep it up. I wake up, everyday of my life, I’ve woken up. I’m waiting for the day that i just don’t, the day i say i’m sorry to every responsibility. The Day I just decide to stay in internal peaceful and serene slumber, but really don’t worry.. I’ll let you know when that day comes. I think I want to explore a little more before I sleep though. So until then, good luck with everything. Goodnight.

Love, A Tree Hugger.

Relentless Reasoning

Hey there. Hi. How are you? Fine, Yourself? Im great, but I think your lying . No,really i’m fine. Alright, if you say so.

But really,I wanna tell you, the world has flipped upside down, and I feel like i’m in way over my head, and I want more then anything to poor my heart out and let you know. I want to tell you how I feel and what’s on my mind. I want you to love me, and tell me you’ll never leave my side. I want to tell you, you’re the one. I want to tell you I’ve known all along but i’m to scared to loose you and everything we have. I wanna blush while I play with your fingers, And I want to smile at you as I admit that I cry listening to your playlist because I think maybe, just maybe it’ll mean you’re closer. I wanna let you know, you could knock loudly on my door at ridiculous times in the AM while singing backstreet boys just to ask me what my favorite colour is and I’d still hug you. I love you.. for real. But even though i want all of this, and I do want you…  I won’t. And my only reasoning is, I love you. And i’m scared, i’m a pussy. It’s great. So, you know what, Now you know.

Money. Money. Money

Why does it control us, our lives revolve around it. Money is the death and the life of human kind, you either have alot and you get assholes pretending to be your friends and pretending to love you just to get what they want. Have money, be happy, get used. Wtf? How the fuck does that work? why the hell, are we like this, we’re all materialistic and obsessed. Now, debt, people who just don’t have the money and are now digging trenches, holes that are extremely hard to get out of. Debt will eat you alive, even if it’s not your own, parents for example. Holy, Shit. Never will i be like them financially, i hate more then anything, that they have screwed us over, screwed me over. They made bad financial choices, and holy crap look what happens, DEBT. no shit sherlock, don’t act all innocent and surprised when that gets declined hun. Don’t go thinking it’s that unlimited, you have to pay for everything in this world, fuck me sideways if i ever turn out to be broke. Verdict to this,i really hate my job. : ] Night folks. fml

Lacking Sanity

Well, as insanity goes. I know the people in my life live by being crazy, and not just special, but actually insane. People call us nuts, they say we don’t think, they say we’re a bad influence and have to smarten up, they judge us before they even know us because they see our actions with a blind eye. We act as we do, not to get attention or be respectful, we act as we do to be who we want to be. We are who we are because its fun, the status quo means nothing to us. We do have respect and we think before our actions, before we do something we KNOW it might not be the best idea, it’ll probably have consequences, but guess what, everything in life has consequences and if you ask me. I rather get in trouble for an experience i had then to live without knowing what might of happen. So next time you think of calling me crazy, calling me bonkers, think again.. i’m perfectly fine, just maybe lacking a bit of sanity is all.